There is a longing in my heart. There is something missing from my life. It is the strangest feeling. I’ve had it for a long time and it is only now that it feels tangible. I’ve spent years trying to fill it up with one pursuit after the next, and they all fall in the category of “when I have this and that, then…”. This and that were mostly worldly stuff: money, clothes, body, job, apartment, … and the list goes on. Eventually a few brain cell lit up and I realized that where I am now is everything I’d desired a few years back. But the emptiness is still there. So accumulating more desires and wishes is obviously not going to solve the problem.